A certain dear friend of mine has written an entry entitled "Looking back and attempting to Learn". For what my life was some 4 days ago, that title would be so apropos that it is frightening, unnerving to say the least.
In an effort to protect my friend's privacy I won't link her. When she reads this, she'll know what I'm referring to.
All I can say is that looking back and trying to be mature, whilst struggling through a shocking/jarring occurrence/revelation isn't always easy.
Grace and dignity under fire, are neither easily invoked nor effortlessly maintained. Yet I insist on maintaining decorum.
I've grown and I've changed. I'm all the better for my experiences.
For what it's worth, it is a beautiful and comforting thing to have people supporting my efforts, congratulating me on my behavior whilst I muddle through this fog laden quandry.
The best is yet to come.
I truly believe that.